the scar remains

This weekend was fun.

Friday I had a job interview.. went well.. pretty much have it in the bag.. but I again, don't feel like it is a good idea. What is wrong with me? My mom told me that my Dad once did this kinda work and his words were, "don't ever sell when you only get commission." Well, unfortunately for me.... my Father is no longer here on this earth and I can't ask him questions. Sad.

The night got better. I went out with friends and had dinner, went to a bar, and saw I Am Legend. <-- (eh.. could've been better.. it ended to suddenly in my opinion) Either way, t'was fun times as always with the lexie crew.

Saturday I had a Christmas dinner party at my house. Yep, my house is the party house.. your welcome.. ha. It went well - I was pleased. The next party is a "Red Carpet" party. Hollywood club style.

Sunday - today - was alright. I slept half the day away.. simply because I finally had a chance to. I thought about a lot of things. Mainly the friendship that I miss so deeply. Even still, I got myself together and went to church with the bests - it was a great Christmas themed service.

Then we went to dinner - where at? - Ah yes, the place of my blog "parking lot goodbyes"
Yep, it was very painful at first. Not only that... but we parked in the same spot as the puddle of tears. One of my friends knew about it.. the other didn't - I didn't want to bring it up but when we first got there - I couldn't help but make a comment. I let it go as best as I could but it was awkward for me. Painful and a bit sad too. Then I thought to myself... look at the people you are with right now - in this exact moment.

There is a reason why I was there. Thusly proving what a rad guy told me last week... situations and people do not/will not define who I am as a person.

Needless, I focused on appreciating the people I love and had a chill time after that. A few more friends randomly showed up too.. proving more.. that I'm not alone in this.

"to love and be loved, I hope it's enough..."