Wednesday, December 5, 2007

I'm Broke Cause You Spent Me

Hey Friends,

As of late, I've had the weight of the world on my bruised shoulders and the feeling is nothing sort of painful. The cut was made and for reasons beyond my control... I continue to pick at the scar. Why do we do that? Why do I try so hard? The stresser that has kicked me in the gut lately is this on-going search for my place in this World aka.. a "good" job. I was finally offered something but now I don't want it.. what is wrong with me?

*raise your glass and toast to better days gone by and better days to come* Amen.

Another more recent - frustrating, nagging, constant (etc..) neon sign in my head - deals with something that I can no longer deny. Are you on the edge of your seat yet? I am. I'm not sure how to go about figuring out what certain things mean in my life right now. I'm left with a stain of awareness that deep down in my heart.. there are certain things that mean more to me that I was allowing myself to acknowledge. I don't like to take things for granted and this process of thought helps me stay focused in such regard.

Back to the heart... here are some questions I've been pondering today.

1)At what point is it ok to put yourself out there?

2)At what point is it ok to speak up on actions and own your behavior?

3)At what point do you realize what you do reflects your intention?

4) What do you do with these new realizations?

and lastly.. no pun intended...

4)When do you just - give - up?

And here I sit and I write. Emo if you want...

I'm Broke Cause You Spent Me

I waited for you

as long as I could,

but I won't waste my time...

on dreams that'll

never come true.

My attempts are in vain

if you pick loneliness over love.

yah, you stole a piece of my heart...

But keep it, im done.

So read my thoughts,

from start to end,

and let them haunt your rest..

cause baby -

you missed your chance

and you'll never have it again...


Axe Victim said...

Nice words them. Keep it up.

blustar said...

Thanks, I'll be posting more soon